Rushing Down Memory Lane

Have you experienced beats and rhythms of a song just suddenly hit your brain while you're doing something? You followed through, remembered 3, 4 words, remembered a line or two, sang it, then typed it on youtube's search box and then viola!  The song suddenly comes into your world once again.  The one which totally made you bob your head back in high school is now making you do the same thing again, even wilder this time, with more intensity and soul as if it was the first time you've heard of it.  

Well that just happened to  me, this thing crashed in while I was love phase with jazz music.  Wow, I had played this song on repeat, and somehow this made me feel strong, fierce, and oh so alive every single time I played it!

This also brought me back to my past and past self - the young awkward nerd, who was afraid to offend people. She was back.  Instinctively I checked on my previous photos on facebook and made me realized how much I've came out of the shell. I wouldn't dare say change, because this who I always was.  I'm just more out there and less caring of what others think.

And so I'll take you down to memory lane to let you see how I transitioned over the years.

Ok college years.  It was an awkward phase but totally better than highschool.  Just to let you know how awkward I was, try checking that old pic of me below.  I was wearing a white polo top with a red wrap around sweater for a friggin field trip. I mean, who does that?  Only an awkward college kid named Shy. HAHA

It is with these buddies of mine whom I spent 4 years with, did I allow myself to get drunk for the first time.  Yes.  First time getting drunk was in college. After drinking 4 or 5 glasses of some alcoholic concoction, I noticed I felt sleepier and out of balance when I walked, it was only then did I realize I was drunk.

And then come nursing years, oh what bitter sweet time that was. I was actually the youngest out of the bunch so my loving classmates took me everywhere.  They had me going to bars and got me into some adult conversations about children, hubbies and the likes; they took me to dining places and other places I have never been to. 

They're really protective of me at that time and I really felt that I could always count on them when needed.  They were my family for 3 years.

And oh my workmates. My sisters from another mother.  I never had so much fun with our sisterhood.  They all came from different backgrounds so they always bring something different on the table.  All different but we understood each other all the same --- we're all girls and we know what we needed from each other.  

 And there were the besties who pushed me out more of my shell

and taught me to become a lady... I'm not quite there yet but I'm kinda working on it.

Those were pictures of me years ago.  And here I am now.

Looking so photoshopped! HAHA

I'm really glad I've gotten to hear that song again. It threw me back in time and made me realized once again, that I was really loved.  I noticed that my dreams haven't really changed, it just gotten a lot clearer and it had more form and direction this time around.  I've learned a lot from the past years and it makes me feel really grateful.  Sure there were some sad moments here and there but in the end, I would like to believe that I've become wiser.  I somehow know now what kind of woman I want to be and what I want to leave and give to this world.  

I've never felt so complete.   

How did life change you?